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Onyx DreamsOnyx Dreams
Fluctuations of sound waves vibrate the floor,
While the lights of my room glow brilliantly,
But as time winds down and my energy starts its decline,
My vision gets blurry and listening becomes hearing,
And hearing becomes simple background noise,
While Palaceer Lazaro’s words become filmy intonations
Yet, still creating a motion picture full of abstract images,
In my mind full of words and phrases that do nothing but stay stagnant,
And Slumber begins to wrap her warm hands around my head,
As she sweetly begins to pull me into black depths of rest,
A state of unconsciousness that will take me on a journey,
Through the grey abyss we call the center of our nervous system,
And once I fall into the pit of nothingness, the pit of onyx, for those few hours,
I will transform into an atramentous being with aphotic wings,
Because “black is free……..”
I Don't Miss AdolescenceMy sister calls to ask me if I'll do her makeup;
Mami promised that she would, but she's tired
and screamed when Maria reminded her senior prom
is tonight. She says, "I have a hickey on my neck,
something she doesn't want to cover, and you've always
done a better job of highlighting the subtle graces
inherent to my bone structure, the angles we share."
I say, "That's okay, but I can't pick you up,"
so she arrives in a flourish of exasperations,
telling me all the family business, waving her nails
in my face and talking about the pain of her extensions.
She says, "Do you think we need yellow concealer?
I plan to take pictures, and the last
You were cold insideYour lips tasted of
summer, of warm days and
relaxing by the
pool side and
smiling against the sun.
You should have been too hot,
too sticky, too humid.
You should have
overheated, should have
melted into your bones until
they turned to ashes, but
it never happened.
I suppose I should have
seen it coming, but
I was so moonstruck over
the way you said my name, so
in love with the idea
of love, that I
didn't notice the way
your eyes bled
The HourglassWatch the hands go round and round.
Ahhhh, how long have I been sitting here,
Listening to the grandfather clock?
Watching him ticking away?
Watching the polished wood yellow and rot?
And with every sound he makes
More maggots eat his wooden flesh.
Every grain that falls is an eternity!
In the firelight you can see the glass.
The dust that coats the cracking bulb,
Listening to the sand that trickles down.
Listening to the passing hours.
With every grain that filters through
Another man sleeps eternally.
The sundial stands defiant!
From my leather chair I see it!
It stands defiant in the plaza below me!
Standing in the moonlit night.
7 - The Pet PoetI remember when Mommy bought you
a black-haired pet for your sweet sixteenth.
Its bronze collar said its name was "Poet."
You fed it noise from the out-of-tune piano,
intense moments involving flesh and razors,
and the occasional walk by the lake.
At first, he knew only the wolf's howl,
purging blood and flames onto the carpets.
Everywhere was a smell of extravagance --
like that woman's cheap perfume on the train to work.
But you cried a little less,
smiled a bit more.
And that was when Daddy stopped
trying to send it back to the shelter.
Soon, you even started watching T.V.
(and enjoyed food, dressed nice, made friends.)
nothing specialthey tell you not to give up
because you have potential--
and to the ones who simply enjoy
you're probably fantastic
but to those who do
you're simply mediocre,
nothing to bat an
you're not quite bad enough
to quit, but you're not
great enough to be
unrequitedyou make my words
gather at the hollows
of my throat
until i choke on them.
my fingers ache to
but my eyes ache to
you're nothing but heart break
wrapped in a bow
of something beautiful,
like the dust of grace from
i drink a little faster and
cry a little harder
because the way whiskey and tears
mingle on my lips
tastes suspiciously of love.
SeppukuA blue sky greets me as I kneel to the ground.
I hear the rushing wind and the sacred water sound.
The cold, grey stone upon my knee,
As I prepare myself for eternity.
I take a solemn look at my silent crowd,
Those cruel, dark faces scream so loud.
They want me to do the final deed.
I'll plunge the tanto in. They'll see me bleed.
I look for a while at my full rice bowl,
And prepare for the next cycle of my soul.
What shall I be? A man or god?
Shall my next life be lived in the mud and sod?
I finish quickly so we don't delay.
By now the light is fading away.
I take up the pen and start to write,
To put brush to paper is one last delight.
VIIEncore un peu de cendre
Au coin de tes lèvres
J'épluche tes souhaits
Tu laves le ciel
Et dans ce vent chaud
Des milliers de pétales
Left AloneYou want me to leave you alone? I'll leave you alone.
You want me to buy you a cake and a knife? Sure I'll do that.
So, what else do you need me to do? OK. That should be easy to do.
Here I go, walking to and fro, to unknown destination just so I can please you.
You hate my guts, huh? Well, to be honest, and I will not lie, I hate your guts too.
You see me and I see you, walking past each other each and everyday - We do not smile.
I often invision you surrounded by flames and you invision me drowning in the sea.
And here is my question to you: Why do you hate me so much?
You snarl as you echo my words: Why do YOU hate me so much?
Thinking.Thinking without thought,
Not thinking about a lot.
Thinking about what it how it would be,
To have a thoughts as endless as the sea.
Thinking about the passing time,
About the mountains I have not climbed.
Thinking about a world gone by,
And about the big blue sky.
Thinking about love so sweet,
And of life crumbling at my feet.
To think about everything vast as it seems,
Would take as long as counting dreams.
So to think without a thought,
And not to think about a lot.
Would carry on an endless dream,
And let time unravel at it's seams.
No wordsI don't like to talk.
I feel that words cannot truly express what I feel.
When I am filled with emotion, I can find no word that can express what I feel to the fullest.
There is no word beautiful enough to describe this joy, no word horrible enough to describe this hate, no word ugly enough to describe this miserable existence.
a small dosage per daysorrow makes its way into my cup of tea every morning
so I add more spoonfuls of sugar into it,
hoping the sweetness will overpower the bitterness;
yet, this clever feeling still seeps through the sweet substance
and clings to the sugar's particles,
races through my veins
and scatters in my blood,
making an entire day feel ruined
Equestrian StormEquestrian Storm
I was walking through Canterlot,
as rain beat my plot.
I just didn’t feel right,
before it came into my sight.
The princess of the night,
alone and broken.
What a pitiful sight,
out of my slump, twas awoken.
“Princess, why are you here why are you crying?”
“Because nopony loves our night, I would be better off dying!”
“No Luna no, now that you shouldn’t say!”
“And why ever not, what reason hath you that I should stay?”
“Celestia for one, your sister whom you love.”
“Right sure, the sister from whom to the moon I was shoved.”
Petit OiseauDon’t move a muscle
I’m not even drawing in breath
Through my heart
Oh, such a tiny, naïve little thing!
Will she let me approach, if I’m careful enough?
Or will wings divide my intentions
Widening gaps from the soil to the sky
Soil in my hands, and
Purple stars in her breath
I could never hurt you, little pixie
My winged Thumbelina
I don’t move a muscle
I’m focusing on not drawing breath
She gives me a heartwarming stare
And oh, I am moments away!
But stop! Coarse laughter sings
Dark notes that may injure her
But the dancer still hops, unaware
Of the tears designing my chee
Christmas Spirit, where have you gone?Oh Christmas spirit, where have you gone?
My oh my, it's been so long.
I've seem to lost you along the way,
Can you please come back and stay?
I'm growing up a little too fast you see,
My life is passing right before me.
Right before my eyes,
But then again, I'm not really surprised.
Wasn't this my dream?
To grow up and rush into my teens?
Not to be a kid anymore,
I wish I knew this before.
This feeling isn't very pleasant,
and the child within me wants to be free
So Santa, I wish you really exist
Because all I want for Christmas, is the spirit that I now miss.
Let's Play A GameWe all have secrets, don't we?
There's something inside you can't bare let out.
Are you scared to be judged?
Ridiculed, mocked for the very thing that eats you a way?
Don't tell anyone, unless you want to play.
Play you ask?
The game of course.
You tell me, I tell her, she tells him, he tells you.
When you find out, everyone else already knows
What a shame, on how this silly little game goes.
Shhhhh, we're not done.
Oh my, here you come.
Eyes dead set on you, everyone's.
Aren't you having fun?
You didn't want to play?
Why didn't you say?
It's a bit too late now,
here's how the story goes.
Why not? Don't you want to be happy?We're young, foolish, careless, reckless teenagers.
Open minds, but with narrow views of the world that we have yet discovered.
We sit here trapped, confined in our prison, our personal hell.
I say fuck it.
I want to go.
I want to roam, run, fly, glide.
We're only as young as we are right now, in this very frame of time.
We're not getting any younger, and I want to live.
So why not?
Why not be happy? Why not make most of the short time we have?
We have the power to make it happen.
I want to break free from these walls of confinement.
I want to hop in the car and go on adventure,
I don't want to look back, I want to k
Aren't We Already Prisoners?Have you ever thought what it'd be like to be in jail? Just once, has it ever crossed you mind? The thought of not thinking for yourself, to be controlled and not have the freedom you once thought you had.
Here's another thought, was the freedom you once had, really freedom at all?
In jail you're a prisoner, but in this world, aren't we prisoners already? If life is about discovering ones self, why are there rules that go against that? Why is this society so corrupt and bias, and why doesn't it permit us to actually LIVE? To live the life we want to, to discover ourselves in the way WE find suitable. We are forced to work in order to make e
Jealousy, Insecurity and Moving On.I hate being such a jealous person. I feel like a green eyed disgusting monster whenever I get jealous. I
t's my biggest personality flaw and I hate it, I hate it more than anything.
When jealousy kicks in, that's when the hurt kicks in, and it's painful, and seeing what I saw today made shit more difficult, It's not that much of a big deal, but I need to learn how to mind my own business and just stay out, but I didn't, once again, and I fucked myself over, again.
And the question stands, how may times do I have to hurt myself until I learn to get a grip?
They say the past is the past, move on, and I think everyone else has but me,I'm st
Rest Of Our LivesImplant your kiss on these tiny lips,
And that alone, will do the trick.
Your soft touch ignites the sparks,
Don't you know you've taken my heart?
Your gentle lips pressed against mine,
When we kiss, I begin to get lost in time.
And I love the way our bodies fall in line
and the chills you make me feel down my spine.
But what hurts the most is knowing when we must part,
and I swear every time, it breaks my heart,
So please, just kiss me once more,
Though I don't know how much pain I can endure.
But let this kiss linger,
and let our fingers intertwine
Let's make each moment last,
For the rest of our lives.
Great EscapeLet's go.
You and I.
Let's leave, don't look back.
Who cares, we're young.
Of course, but that won't stop me.
They were never family.
I can make it on my own.
But so are you.
Fuel up on gas and store some food, I want to escape.
Escape from here of course.
This place? It's hell. You know that.
They're brainwashing us, I don't want to conform.
Conform to their rules, to their views.
I want to be me, openly be me.
I refuse to subject myself to their judgmental eyes no longer.
Let's go, please.
Don't you want to escape too?
I need you with
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